Tomorrow my oldest son will be in Kindergarten, and on Wednesday my youngest will be full day pre-school. This thought has crossed my mind when they were first born ,but as I see it now... how much time truly passes. I have seen them grow in so many ways into beautiful little boys, full of life ,screams& shouts, and as my own children. It's sad to say that their father hasn't seen them grow as I have and hope that someday my children will know it was I who is ,was, and always will be there for them both in the good and bad. Not, that I wouldn't speak kindly of their dad , it's just tough knowing some guys aren't meant to be dads. As for them and school, I can't wait to help them out and get to do more with them and get more involved with their school activities and get more fulfilled with happiness and joy watching them grow. I know now it won't be long before they are seniors and grown and out of my home , and the lonely feeling starts all over again.
I will have all this freetime, now that they are in full-day school, I am starting pursue my many options to grow and be happy for my own self as well. I am contemplating going back for my RN in the fall , thus me getting my pre-req's accomplished, and to get myself a vehicle , a better apartment and hopfully move to a nicer area.
Scary thing is, being only 26... It wasn't long ago I was a senior with a promising future. Though I took a few stumbles in this crazy thing called life, I've been strong enough to continue on even with the bad and make it out in the end. This is what my kid's will eventually see when they are my age. I'll be there ready with every quip I was told, both funny and scary.... ah....School days.
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